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Ko To Rok Lo {Update - 060}
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Kuch hi der me riya log taiyar hokar, mere kamre me aa gayi. Unke dinner par jaane ka samay ho chuka tha. Isliye mai uth kar, unke sath bahar aa gaya. Maine unhe taxi me baithaya aur fir apne kamre me wapas aa gaya.
Abhi sirf 8 baja tha aur mujhe hospital 10 baje pahuchna tha. Mai chahta tha ki is bich meri keerti se baat ho jaye. Yadi maine keerti ko gussa nahi kiya hota to, uska mobile itni der tak band nahi raha hota aur mujhe us se baat karne ki itni bechaini bhi nahi ho rahi hoti.
Lekin ab keerti se baat kiye bina, ek ek pal mere liye badi mushkil se beet raha tha. Mai har haal me, sirf keerti ki aawaj sunna chahta tha. Lekin mai us se kaise baat karu, ye meri samajh me nahi aa raha tha.
Tabhi mere dimag me ek baat aayi aur mere chehre par muskurahat aa gayi. Lekin tab mai ye nahi janta tha ki, ye muskurahat mere chehre par, sirf kuch der ke liye, mehmaan bankar aayi hai aur jate jate, mujhe ek aisa dard dene wali hai. Jise mai laakh koshish karne ke bad bhi nahi sah pauga.
Maine anjani si khushi ke josh me apna mobile uthaya aur jaise hi call lagane ko hua. Waise hi kisi ne mere kamre ka darwaja khatkhata diya. Ab riya, nikki aur priya to dinner par ja chuki thi. Aise me aunty ke siwa kisi aur ke hone ki koi ummid nahi thi.
Ye sochte huye, mai fauran darwaja kholne ke liye uth kar khada ho gaya. Maine darwaja khol to, samne dada ji khade najar aaye. Unhe dekhte hi maine unko andar aane ko kaha aur unke andar aakar chair par baithte hi, maine un se kaha.
Mai bola “dada ji aapko aane ki kya jarurat thi. Yadi aapko mujhse koi khas kaam tha to, mujhe bula liya hota. Mai aapke pas chala aata.”
Dada ji bole “dekho, bete ye duniya ki riwayat hai. Kunwa khud chal kar, pyase ke pas nahi aata. Balki pyase ko hi khud chalkar, kunwe ke pas jana padta hai.”
Mai bola “dada ji, aap mujhse bade hai. Aapko mujhe apne pas bulane ka pura haq hai. Fir chahe, wo kaam aapka hi kyo na ho.”
Dada ji bole “chalo agli baar se tumhari is baat ko yaad rakhuga. Ab mai apni baat par aata hu. Mujhe tumse ek bahut jaruri kaam ki baat karni hai. Isliye mai khud chal kar tumhare pas aaya hu.”
“Ye kaam yadi mai tumhare dost mehul ya kisi aur se bolta to, wo khushi khushi is kaam ko karne ke liye taiyar ho jaata. Lekin ho sakta hai ki, meri baat sunne ke bad, tum is kaam ko karne se mana kar do.”
Mai bola “dada ji aap aisa kyo sochte hai. Mai aapke kisi bhi kaam ko karne ke liye mana nahi kar sakta. Lekin ek baat bataiye, jab wo kaam mehul ya koi aur kar sakta hai. Tab aapne us kaam ke liye mujhe hi kyo chuna hai.”
Dada ji bole “beta, maine duniya dekhi hai. Mai logon ko dekh ke pahchan jata hu ki, kis ke man me kya hai. Aise hi maine tumhare man ko bhi pachana hai. Tum ek behad hi bhole bhale aur samvedanshil ladke ho. Jiske hath se kabhi kisi ka bura nahi ho sakta.”
Mai bola “aisa nahi hai dada ji. Mai koi bhola bhala nahi hu. Mere andar ghamand kut kut kar bhara hai. Mai apne siwa kisi ki baat nahi sunta.”
Dada ji bole “yahi to tumhara bholapan hai. Tum ghamand aur swabhimaan me antar hi nahi samajh sakte. Jise tum apna ghamand bol rahe ho. Wo tumhara swabhimaan hai. Swabhimani aadami sirf apne banaye aadarshon par chalta hai. Wo dusro ke dikhaye raste par nahi chalta. Isliye log use ghamandi kahte hai.”
Mai bola “in sab baton ka aapke kaam se kya lena hai.”
Dada ji bole “lena hai beta. Tabhi to sabko chhod kar, maine tumhe apne kaam ke liye chuna hai.”
Mai bola “aap apna kaam bataiye. Mai use pura karne ki puri koshish karuga.”
Dada ji bole “ye kaam mere ghar ki ijjat se juda hua hai. Isliye mai chahta hu ki, chahe tum mera kaam karo, ya na karo. Lekin humare bich me jo bhi baten ho rahi hai. Un baton ka pata kisi ko bhi nahi chalna chahiye. Kyoki is baat ke kisi aur ko pata chalne se, is ghar ki ijjat mitti me mil jayegi.”
Mai bola “aap brfikar rahe dada ji. Ye baat kisi ko bhi pata nahi chalegi. Aapke aur mere bich huyi baat, hamesha ke liye mere sine me dafan ho jayegi.”
Dada ji bole “ho sakta hai ki, ye kaam sunne ke bad, tum mera kaam karne ke liye mana kar do. Yadi tum aisa karte ho to bhi, mere man me tumhare liye koi burai nahi rahgi. Tum bhi is kaam ko sunne ke bad apne man me, humare pariwar ke liye koi mail mat aane dena.”
Mai bola “aap chinta na kare dada ji. Aapki kahi kisi baat se mere man me, aapke pariwar ke liye koi mail nahi aayega. Yadi koi baat mere man me aati bhi hai to, mai use aapse kar ke, apne man ka mail nikal luga. Ab aap apni baat bataiye.”
Dada ji bole “beta ye baat mai tumse dada ji bankar nahi, balki tumhara ek dost bankar karna chahta hu. Tum bhi mujhse kisi dost ki tarah hi baat karna. Is se na to, tumhare dil par koi bojh padega aur na hi mere dil par koi bojh padega.”
Mai bola “ji dada ji, jaisa aap chahte hai, waisa hi hoga. Hum ek dusre ke dost bankar hi baat karege.”
Dada ji bole “ab hum dost ban gaye hai to, doston ki tarah hi baten karte hai. Ab tum mujhe dada ji ki jagah, sirf dadu hi kahna.”
Mai bola “ok dadu.”
Dada ji bole “ab hum sex aur ladkiyon se judi baten karege. Kya tum mujhe apna dost samajh kar, ye baten khul ke kar paoge.”
Mai bola “ab dadu ko dost banaya hai to, dost ki tarah baat to karna hi padega. Mai kar luga dadu. Magar kisi baat par meri hansi mat udana.”
Dada ji bole “are doston ke bich to hansi majak chalta rahta hai. Tum is hansi majak ka bura mat manna. Ab ye batao, tumhari koi girlfriend hai.”
Mai bola “nahi, meri koi girlfriend nahi hai.”
Dada ji bole “ye to tum jhuth bol rahe ho. Tumhare jaise ladke ki koi girlfriend na ho. Ye mai maan hi nahi sakta.”
Mai bola “sach me dadu. Meri koi girlfriend nahi hai. Yadi hoti to batane me kya harj tha.”
Dada ji bole “chalo maan leta hu ki, tumhari koi girlfriend nahi hai. Magar kyo nahi hai. Kya koi pasand nahi aayi, ya fir kisi ko tum abhi tak pata hi nahi paye ho.”
Mai bola “koi pasand hi nahi aayi dadu.”
Dada ji bole “acha ye batao, tumhe riya, priya aur nikki me se kaun jyada sundar lagta hai.”
Mai bola “dadu, aap ye kya faltu ki baten puchh rahe hai. Apne kaam ki baat karo na.”
Dada ji bole “wahi baat karne ki taiyari kar raha hu. Lekin jab tak tum apne dost se khuloge nahi. Tab tak tumhara ye dost, tumse wo baat nahi kar payega.”
Mai bola “ok mujhe riya, priya aur nikki me nikki jyada sundar lagti hai.”
Dada ji bole “un teeno me jyada sexy kaun hai.”
Mai bola “riya sabse jyada sexy hai. Wo kuch bhi pahan le sexy hi lagti hai.”
Dada ji bole “acha ye bata, tujhe teeno me se sabse jyada kaun pasand hai.”
Mai bola “dadu, mujhe to, priya sabse jyada pasand hai. Wo hamesha hansti khilkhilati rahti hai. Uske andar abhi bhi bachpana bhara hua hai.”
Dada ji bole “tumhari najar bahut achi hai. Har kisi ki khubi ko badi aasani se pakad liya. Jab tumhari koi girlfriend nahi hai to, tum inme se hi, kisi ko girlfriend kyo nahi bana lete.”
Mai bola “inko girlfriend bana kar kya karuga dadu. Mujhe kaun sa yaha rahna hai. Kuch din bad to, mai wapas chala jauga. Girlfriend boyfriend apne sahar me hi banana acha rahta hai. Ye to meri dost hi thik hai.”
Dada ji bole “baat to tumhari sahi hai. Lekin tumhe ek girlfriend to banana hi chahiye. Tabhi to life ka kuch maja hai.”
Mai bola “dadu meri life me to bina girlfriend ke bhi maja hai. Mujhe kisi girlfriend ki jarurat nahi hai.”
Dada ji bole “jab tumhari girlfriend hi nahi hai to, tumhe girlfriend wale maje ka pata kaise chalega.”
Mai bola “kyo, girlfriend me aisa kya maja hai. Jara mujhe bhi batao.”
Dada ji bole “tumne kabhi kisi ke sath sex kiya hai.”
Mai bola “nahi kiya.”
Dada ji bole “yahi to wo maja hai, Jo girlfriend se milta hai. Tumhari umar me to, meri 3-4 girlfriend thi. Jinse maine sex bhi kiya tha. Ab tumhari girlfriend hi nahi hai to, tum sex kaise kar sakte ho. Magar tumne hast-maithun to jarur kiya hoga.”
Mai bola “ye kya hota hai aur isko karne se kya hota hai.”
Dada ji bole “iska matlab tumne ye bhi nahi kiya. Iske liye to girlfriend banane ki jarurat bhi nahi hoti hai. Jab kisi sundar aur sexy ladki ko dekhkar sharir me uttejna jaagti hai aur ling akad kar khada ho jata hai.”
“Aise samay me use shant karne ke liye, use apne hathon me lekar upar niche karte hai. Jis ko karne se ling me se virya ki pichkari chhutti hai aur ling shant ho jata hai. Ise hast-maithun kahte hai.”
Dada ji ki baat mere samajh me aa gayi thi. Mai hast-maithun ka matlab to, nahi janta tha. Lekin ab samajh me aaya tha ki, apne kamre me riya ko sochte huye, maine jo sab kuch kiya tha. Wo hast-maithun hi tha aur iske samajh me aate hi, maine achanak dada ji kaha.
Mai bola “ye to mai ek baar kar chuka hu dadu.”
Apni baat bol jaane ke bad, mujhe ye aehsas hua ki, mujhe ye baat nahi kahna chahiye thi. Isliye mera sar sharam se jhuk gaya. Lekin dadu meri baat sun chuke the aur wo is khel ke purane khiladi the. Un ne mujhse kaha.
Dada ji bole “kaun thi wo ladki. Jiske naam se tumne hast-maithun kiya tha.”
Mai bola “ladki koi nahi thi. Wo to maine aise hi kar liya tha.”
Dada ji bole “beta, ye ling kisi ladki ko dekh kar hi akada hoga. Fir tumne usi ladki ka naam le le kar ise apne hathon se shant karaya hoga. Ab hum jab apne ghar ka raz tumhe bata rahe hai to, tum bhi apna raz hume bada do.”
Mai bola “wo sab achanak hi ho gaya tha. Mai karna nahi chahta tha.”
Dada ji bole “is tarah safayi dene ka matlab to yahi hai ki, wo isi ghar ki koi ladki hai.”
Mai bola “nahi, wo hast-maithun to maine ghar me kiya tha. Hum log watterfall gaye the. Wahi maine ek ladki ko swiming karte dekha tha. Wo bahut sexy lag rahi thi. Uske bad mujhse raha nahi gaya aur ghar aakar maine ye sab kar liya.”
Dada ji bole “swiming par to, tumhare sath riya thi.”
Mai bola “kya dadu, aap to is ghar ke pichhe hi pad gaye. Is ghar ki koi ladki nahi thi.”
Dada ji bole “jaha tak mujhe riya ne bataya tha. Waha tumhare sath tumhari 3 bahne raj, riya, mehul aur mehul ki girlfriend thi. Tumhari 3 bahno aur mehul ki girlfriend ke baare me to tum aisa soch bhi nahi sakte. Tab to tumhare aisa karne ke liye riya hi bachti hai.”
Dada ji ki is baat ne meri bolti hi band kar di thi. Mai apne bachav ka rasta dud raha tha aur tabhi mere dimag me nitika ka khayal aa gaya. Maine un se kaha.
Mai bola “inke aalawa ek ladki nitika bhi thi. Usi ko dekh ke, mere man me ye khayal aa gaya tha.”
Baat to maine apni taraf se sahi hi ki thi. Lekin mere dimag me us samay ye baat nahi aayi thi ki, nitika bhi dada ji ke dusre ladke ki beti hai. Isliye meri baat sun kar dada ji ne hanste huye kaha.
Dada ji bole “tumhari pasand bhi ajib hai. Tumhe jannat ki ye pariyan chhod kar, wo chhuyi muyi si nitika pasand aayi. Maine to use salwar suit ke siwa, kabhi kisi libas me nahi dekha. Lekin ye baat to manna padega, wo bahut sidhi aur sarif ladki hai. Isiliye jab tumne use swiming karte hye dekha hoga to, tum ye sab karne par majbur ho gaye hoge. Lekin tum ye kyu bhool rahe ho ki, nitika bhi isi ghar ki bachchi hai.”
Mai bola “sorry dadu. Maine janbujh kar aisa nahi kiya tha. Wo to achanak hi mere sath aisa ho gaya tha.”
Dada ji bole “isme sorry bolne ki koi jarurat nahi hai. Ye to is umar me sabke sath hota hai. Kya tumhe nitika bahut pasand hai. Yadi pasand hai to bol do. Mai abhi se tumhari shadi uske sath fix karwa duga.”
Mai bola “nahi dadu, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Mai to ladkiyon se door hi rahta hu.”
Dada ji bole “thik hai, lekin yadi kabhi tumhara irada nitika se shadi karne ka bane to, mujhe bol dena. Meri baat ko koi nahi talega.”
Mai bola “ok dadu. Ab aap apni wo baat bataiye, jiske liye aap yaha mere pas aaye hai.”
Dada ji bole “thik hai to ab tum meri baat suno. Magar meri baat sunkar, tum ek dam se chaukna mat aur meri puri baat sunkar usko samajne ki koshish karna.”
Mai bola “ok dadu. Ab aap apni baat suru kijiye.”
Dada ji bole “baat ye hai ki, pichhle kuch samay se meri bahu ki tabiyat thik nahi rahti hai. Mujhe uske ilaj ke liye tumhari madad ki jarurat hai.”
Mai bola “aap boliye dadu, mujhe kya madad karna hai. Mai aunty ke ilaj ke liye aapki har madad karuga.”
Dada ji bole “tumhe uske sath sex karna hai.”
Dada ji ki ye baat sunkar, mai chauke bina, na rah saka. Mujhe abhi bhi apne kaano par vishwas hi nahi ho raha tha ki, mai jo kuch bhi sun raha hu, wo sab sach hai. Dada ji ki is baat ne mere is raz ko janne ki bechaini bada di thi. Lekin fir bhi ye baat mere gale se nahi utar rahi thi. Isliye maine unse kaha.
Mai bola “dadu aap ye sab kya bol rahe hai. Aunty meri maa ke barabar hai aur unke sath ye sab karna to door ki baat hai. Mai aisa sochna bhi paap samajhta hu. Aap jante hai ki, ye sab galat hai. Fir aap aisi baat kyo bol rahe hai.”
Dada ji bole “mai janta hu ki, ye sab galat hai. Fir bhi mujhe apni bahu ki khushi ke liye tumse ye sab kahna pad raha hai. Wo to is baare me kuch janti hi nahi hai. Maine pahle tumse baat karna thik samjha. Yadi tum haan kahte ho to, fir mai us se baat karuga.”
Mai bola “nahi dadu, mai aisa koi kaam nahi kar sakta. Jisse mere charitra par daag lage. Mai aapki har tarah ki madad karne ko taiyar hu. Magar mujhse aapki ye madad nahi hogi.”
Dada ji bole “kahin tum is vajah se mana to, nahi kar rahe ho. Kyoki padmini ek ladki na hokar, ek aurat hai aur tum apna pahla sex kisi ladki se karna chahte ho.”
Mai bola “nahi dadu, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Maine aapse jhuth kaha tha ki, meri koi girlfriend nahi hai. Meri ek girlfriend hai aur mai use behad pyar karta hu. Wo bhi mujhe bahut pyar karti hai. Wo mere siwa ki ke baare me sochti hi nahi hai. Humare bich sirf pyar ka pavitra rishta hai.
“Humare rishte ke bich sex kabhi aaya hi nahi hai. Jab maine uske sath abhi tak sex nahi kiya hai to, fir kisi aur ladki ke sath sex karne ke baare me soch bhi kaise sakta hu. Yadi mai aisa kuch karta hu to, ye uske pyar aur vishwas ke sath dhokha karna hoga. Ab aap hi batao, kya uske sath ye dhokha karna thik hoga.”
Dada ji bole “nahi, kisi ke pyar aur vishwas ke sath kabhi dhokha nahi karna chahiye. Fir bhi yadi tumhe us par vishwas hai aur tumhe lagta hai ki, wo humari baat ko kisi se nahi kahegi. Tab tum chaho to, us se ek baar puchh kar dekh sakte ho. Ho sakta hai ki, wo tumhe is baat ki ijajat de de.”
Mai bola “dadu, mujhe us par pura vishwas hai. Mai us se jo bhi baat karta hu. Wo un baton ko kabhi kisi se nahi kahti. Lekin mai use janta hu. Wo is baat ke liye kabhi taiyar nahi hogi. Pls dadu, mujhe ye kaam na karne ke liye maaf kar do. Aap chaho to, apna ye kaam mehul se karwa lo. Wo bahut acha ladka hai.”
Dada ji bole “nahi beta, mai janta hu ki mehul acha ladka hai. Lekin uske andar mujhe kisi baat ko raz rakhne ki kabliyat najar nahi aati. Wo is baat ko raz nahi rakh payega aur mere pariwar ki ijjat kharab ho jayegi.”
Mai bola “aapki soch sahi hai dadu. Mehul kisi baat ko apne pet me pacha nahi pata hai. Lekin meri samajh me ye baat nahi aa rahi hai ki, uncle ke hote huye aap ko ye sab karwane ki jarurat kya hai. Kya aap mujhe wo vajah batayege.”
Dada ji bole “mujhe tum par pura vishwas hai. Isliye mai tumhe apne aisa karne ki vajah batata hu. Jis se tumhe tumhare man me uth rahe saare sawalon ka jabab mil jayega. Tab tum mujhe batana ki, kya mai kuch galat kar raha hu.”
Iske bad dada ji mujhe us raz ke baare me batane lage. Jis ki vajah se un ne ye sab baten mujh se kahi thi. Mai un ki baten bade hi man laga kar sun raha tha. Apni baat khatam karne ke bad, wo mera chehra dekhne lage. Lekin jab mai kuch nahi bola to, un ne mujhse puchha.
Dada ji bole “mai janta hu. Tumhe ye sab jaankar mujhse aur mere parivar se nafrat ho rahi hogi. Lekin maine tumhe jo kuch bhi bataya hai. Wo sab sach hai. Ab ise tum chahe to, meri badkismati maan sakte ho, ya fir ise meri majburi ka naam de sakte ho. Lekin maine jo kuch bhi kiya. Us samay mujhe ye sab karna thik laga tha. Lekin ab mujhe is baat ko lekar man hi man pachtawa bhi hota hai.”
Mai abhi bhi unki baat ko khamoshi se sune ja raha tha. Dada ji ki kisi baat ka mere pas koi jabab nahi tha. Dada ji ne duniya dekhi thi aur unki kisi baat par ungli utha pana mere bas ki baat nahi thi. Fir bhi maine un se kaha.
Mai bola “dadu mujhe in sab baton ki itni samajh nahi hai. Lekin itna jarur janta hu ki, koi bhi kaam yadi kisi ki bhalai ke liye kiya gaya ho to, wo bura nahi hota. Fir isme to aapke saare parivar ki khushi chhupi huyi thi. Duniya chahe is baare me kuch bhi sochti ho. Lekin meri najar me aapne kuch galat nahi kiya. Mujhe aap se ya aapke parivar se koi nafrat nahi hai.”
Dada ji bole “bas beta, tumne meri baat ko samjha. Mere liye itna hi bahut hai. Yadi tumhari girlfriend is baat ke liye taiyar ho jaye to mujhe jarur batana.”
Mai bola “jarur dadu, yadi wo is baat ke liye maan gayi to, mai aapko jarur batauga.”
Dada ji bole “chalo, ab baat bahut ho gayi hai. Ab chal kar dinner kar lo. Fir tumhe hospital bhi jana hai.”
Mai bola “aap chalo dadu. Mai abhi aata hu.”
Meri baat sunkar, dada ji mere kamre se bahar chale gaye. Dada ji ke jaane ke bad mai fresh hua aur fir taiyar hone laga. Taiyar hote hote mujhe 9 baj gaye aur fir mai dinner ke liye dining room me aa gaya.
Dada ji aur aunty waha pahle se hi baithe huye the. Mujhe aaya dekh kar aunty khana lagane lagi. Aaj pahli baar mai aunty ko itne dhyan se dekh raha tha. Unki umar koi 40 ke aas pas hi hogi. Unhe dekh kar koi kah nahi sakta tha ki, wo 3 jawan bachcho ki maa hai.
Wo is samay yellow color ki saadi pahne huyi thi. Jisme unka doodh ki tarah gora rang aur bhi damak raha tha. Unki saadi ka pallu unki kamar par khusa hua tha. Jis vajah se unka pet aur nabhi saaf saaf najar aa rahi thi.
Shingar ke naam par unke gale me ek sone ka haar tha aur kamar me ek chandi ka kamar bandh bandha hua tha. Kaano me sone ki badi badi baliyan thi. Jo unke kaam karne par idhar udhar jhool rahi thi.
Apne baalon ko un ne ek choti banakar bandha hua tha. Fir bhi unke kaano ke kinare ke kuch baal, bandhne se bach gaye the. Jo unke gaalon par aa rahe the. Jisse unki sundarta aur bhi bad gayi thi.
Unke manthe par ek chhoti si bindi thi aur maang me sindur ki lalima thi. Jo unke pativrata hone ki nishani thi. Wo is samay sundarta ki jeeti jaagti murat najar aa rahi thi. Aunty ka ye roop dekh kar, mai isme kho sa gaya.
Mujhe ye bhi yaad na raha ki, is samay dada ji bhi mere sath baithe huye hai. Aise me mujhe is tarah se aunty ghoorte dekh kar, wo ya aunty mere baare me kya sochege. Mai in sab baton se anjan, aunty ko ek-tak dekhe hi ja raha tha.
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Wo is samay yellow color ki saadi pahne huyi thi. Jisme unka doodh ki tarah gora rang aur bhi damak raha tha. Unki saadi ka pallu unki kamar par khusa hua tha. Jis vajah se unka pet aur nabhi saaf saaf najar aa rahi thi.
Shingar ke naam par unke gale me ek sone ka haar tha aur kamar me ek chandi ka kamar bandh bandha hua tha. Kaano me sone ki badi badi baliyan thi. Jo unke kaam karne par idhar udhar jhool rahi thi.
Apne baalon ko un ne ek choti banakar bandha hua tha. Fir bhi unke kaano ke kinare ke kuch baal, bandhne se bach gaye the. Jo unke gaalon par aa rahe the. Jisse unki sundarta aur bhi bad gayi thi.
Unke manthe par ek chhoti si bindi thi aur maang me sindur ki lalima thi. Jo unke pativrata hone ki nishani thi. Wo is samay sundarta ki jeeti jaagti murat najar aa rahi thi. Aunty ka ye roop dekh kar, mai isme kho sa gaya.
Mujhe ye bhi yaad na raha ki, is samay dada ji bhi mere sath baithe huye hai. Aise me mujhe is tarah se aunty ghoorte dekh kar, wo ya aunty mere baare me kya sochege. Mai in sab baton se anjan, aunty ko ek-tak dekhe hi ja raha tha.
Mai aunty ke is man mohak roop me kho sa gaya tha. Mere man me vasna naam ki koi baat nahi thi. Na hi aunty ko lekar mere man me, koi galat vichar aa raha tha. Lekin mujhe is tarah aunty ko ghurte huye dekh kar aunty ne kaha.
Aunty boli “kya hua beta. Mujhe aise kyo dekh raha hai. Kya tujhe ye dinner pasand nahi hai.”
Mai bola “nahi aunty, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Dinner acha hai. Mai to ye dekh raha hu ki, aapke andar sab ke liye kitni mamta hai. Aap hum sab ka kitna khayal rakhti hai. Itna sab karne ke bad bhi aapke chehre par thakan ka namo-nishan tak nahi hai.”
Aunty boli “chal hat pagal. Maa apne bachcho ka khayal nahi rakhegi to aur kaun rakhega. Koi bhi maa apne ghar ke kaam kaaj ko karne se kabhi nahi thakti. Teri maa bhi to ghar me tere liye yahi sab karti hogi. Kya tune use kabhi thakte dekha hai.”
Aunty ki baat sunkar dada ji bol pade.
Dada ji bole “bahu punnu ki maa nahi hai. Wo apni sauteli maa ke sath rahta hai. Fir bhala wo in sab baton ko kaise samjhega.”
Dada ji ki baat sunkar aunty ne kaha.
Aunty boli “sorry beta, mere dimag se ye baat nikal gayi thi. Meri baat yadi tumhe buri lagi ho to, uske liye mai maafi chahti hu. Sauteli maa se to tumhe kabhi maa ka pyar mila hi nahi hoga. Kyoki koi bhi sauteli maa kabhi sagi maa ki jagah nahi le sakti hai.”
Mujhe aunty ki meri maa na hone wali baat ka jara bhi bura nahi laga. Lekin jab un ne kaha ki koi bhi sauteli maa sagi maa ki jagah nahi le sakti. Tab mujhse raha nahi gaya. Maine unki is baat ka jabab dete huye kaha.
Mai bola “nahi aunty, isme maafi mangne wali koi baat nahi hai. Mujhe janam dene wali maa sach me is duniya me nahi hai. Lekin fir bhi meri maa hai. Meri chhoti maa ne kabhi bhi mujhe apni maa ki kami mehsus nahi hone di. Wo mujhe itna pyar karti hai. Jitna koi sagi maa bhi apne bete ko na karti hogi.”
“Unne sirf meri vajah se mere bap ke diye har dard ko saha hai. Nahi to, wo kab ka mere bap ko chhod kar chali gayi hoti. Wo mere liye meri sagi maa se bhi badkar hai. Mai apni sagi maa ko to kab ka bhool chuka hu. Lekin meri chhoti maa hamesha mere dil me rahti hai.”
Dada ji bole “sorry beta, jo maine tumhari chhoti maa ko sauteli maa kaha. Shayad tumhe is baat ka bura lag gaya.”
Mai bola “dadu, isme sorry bolne wali koi baat nahi hai. Log aksar sauteli maa ko bura hi samajhte hai. Lekin mere liye meri chhoti maa devi hai. Unhe meri har chhoti se chhoti baat ki fikar rahti hai. Yaha bhi unka phone barabar aata rahta hai.”
“Unhe hamesha is baat ki chinta lagi rahti hai ki, maine khana khaya ya nahi khaya. Kahi raat ko jagne ki vajah se meri tabiyat to kharab nahi ho gayi hai. Ab kya is sabke bad bhi aap logon ko lagta hai ki, koi sauteli maa sagi maa ki jagah nahi le sakti.”
Meri baat sunkar dada ji kuch nahi bole. Shayad unke pas meri is baat ka koi jabab nahi tha. Lekin aunty ne meri baat sunkar kaha.
Aunty boli “beta tum sach me bahut kismat wale ho. Jo tumhe aisi maa mili hai. Tumhari maa sach me devi hi hai. Jo tumhe itna pyar karti hai. Kya tumhare ghar me tumhare koi bhai bahan bhi hai.”
Mai bola “haan aunty hai. Mere ghar me meri chhoti maa aur papa ke alawa meri do chhoti bahne bhi hai. Meri ek bahan ka naam amita hai. Hum use pyar se ami bulate hai. Wo abhi teesri kaksha me pad rahi hai. Meri dusri bahan ka naam namita hai. Hum use pyar se nimi bulate hai. Usne isi saal se school jana suru kiya hai.”
“Dono hi ek se bad kar, ek hai. Unki shaitaniyon se humare ghar me hamesha hansi khushi bani rahti hai. Jitna pyar mai un dono se karta hu. Us se bhi jyada pyar wo dono mujhse karti hai. Yadi unka bas chalta to, wo dono bhi mere sath yaha aa gayi hoti.”
Aunty boli “tab to dono tumhe bahut miss kar rahi hogi.”
Mai bola “haan aunty, dono hi mujhe bahut miss kar rahi hai. Nimi ko to bukhar tak aa gaya hai. Ab usne shart rakhi hai ki, mai roj us se 3 baar baat karuga, Nahi to, wo khana nahi khayegi.”
Aunty boli “aur ami kya kahti hai.”
Mai bola “ami us se badi hai, isliye usne is se bhi badi baat ki hai. Usne kaha ki uncle ka operation to ho chuka hai aur abhi papa bhi wahi hai. Aise me kuch din ke liye mai ghar aa jau.”
Aunty boli “sach me tum bahut kismat wale ho. Jo tumhe itna pyar karne wala pariwar mila hai.”
Mai bola “haan aunty, wo to mai hu. Lekin aap bhi kam kismat wali nahi hai, jise itna acha parivar mila hai.”
Meri baat sunkar aunty ka chehra utar sa gaya tha. Likin fir bhi un ne muskurate huye kaha.
Aunty boli “sach hai, aisa parivar kismat walo ko hi milta hai. Ab tum ye baten chhodo aur dinner karo. Nahi to fir tumhe hospital pahuchne me der ho jayegi.”
Mai bola “ji aunty.”
Iske bad koi kuch nahi bola. Sab khomoshi se dinner karte rahe. Mai man hi man aunty se khushkismat hone wali baat bolne ke liye khud ko kosh raha tha. Kuch der bad hum sab dinner kar chuke the.
Ab maine time dekha to 9:30 baj chuka tha. Tab maine dada ji aur aunty se hospital jaane ke liye ijajat mangi aur fir mai bahar aa gaya. Bahar aakar maine taxi li aur hospital ke liye nikal gaya.
Mai 10 baje hospital pahuch gaya. Hospital pahuch kar, maine dekha to niche raj baitha tha. Maine us se kaha.
Mai bola “ab uncle ki tabiyat kaisi hai.”
Raj bola “ab unki tabiyat pahle se behatar hai. Doctor ne unhe jyada se jyada walk karne ko kaha hai.”
Mai bola “kya aisi haalat me uncle ka walk karna thik rahega.”
Raj bola “yahi baat maine bhi doctor se bhi puchhi thi. Uska kahna tha ki, inki jo surgery ki gayi hai. Uske liye inka walk karna jaruri hai. Isse inki sabhi koshikayen sahi tarike se kaam karne lagegi aur inki haalat me bhi sudhar jaldi aa jayega.”
Mai bola “ok doctor ne kaha hai to, soch samajh kar hi kaha hoga. Lekin kya uncle bister se uthne lage hai.”
Raj bola “haan, ab wo bistar se uthne lage hai. Maine khud unhe walk karaya tha aur abhi mehul unhe walk kara raha hai. Wo khud hi walk bhi kar sakte hai. Magar abhi unhe drip lagi huyi hai. Jis vajah se kisi ek ka unke sath hona jaruri hai. Raat ko yadi uncle tumhe walk ke liye bole to, tum unki drip ko pakad lena baki walk wo khud kar lege. Unhe walk karne me koi pareshani nahi hai.”
Mai bola “ok yadi ab uncle ka walk ho gaya ho to, mehul ko bula lo. Tum logon ko ab ghar jana chahiye.”
Raj bola “ok mai abhi mehul ko call karta hu.”
Ye kah kar raj ne mehul ko call laga diya. Kuch der bad mehul niche aa gaya. Niche aate hi wo mere gale se lag gaya aur kahne laga.
Mehul bola “bhai yaha ke doctor sach me kamal ke hai. Unne papa ko 2 din me hi khada kar diya. Mai to soch raha tha ki, na jaane abhi papa kitne din yu hi bed par lete rahege. Lekin aaj unhe chalte huye dekh kar, mujhe bahut khushi huyi. Ab lag raha hai ki papa jaldi hi thik ho jayege.”
Mai bola “ab to tu khush hai na. Ab bas hume kuch din yaha uncle ki sewa aur karna hai. Fir hum khushi khushi unhe apne ghar lekar chalege.”
Mehul bola “par bhai, abhi wo kuch kha nahi pa rahe hai. Unhe jo bhi diya ja raha hai. Wo rice tube se diya ja raha hai.”
Mai bola “humare jaane se pahle wo bhi door ho jayegi. Uncle ka gale ka operation hua hai. Isliye unhe khane peene me pareshani hai. Jis vajah se unhe is tarah se khana diya ja raha hai. Lekin kuch din me unke jakhm bharte hi, unhe fir waise hi khana diya jaane lagega. Ab tu is baare me jyada mat soch. Dhire dhire sab thik ho jayega.”
Mehul bola “bhagwan kare jaisa tu bol raha hai. Sab waisa hi ho.”
Mai bola “sab waisa hi hoga. Ab tum log yaha ki chinta mat karo. Mai yaha sab sambhal luga. Ab tum log ghar jao.”
Meri baat sunne ke bad un ne mujhe kuch baten batayi aur fir dono ghar chale gaye. Unke jaane ke bad mai upar uncle ke pas chala aaya. Wo abhi bhi baat nahi kar pa rahe the. Isliye wo mujhse notbook par likh kar baten karne lage.
Kuch der bad wo sone ki bol kar aankh band kar ke let gaye. Thodi hi der me unhe nind bhi aa gayi. Unke sone ke kuch der bad tak mai unke pas baitha raha. Fir 11:30 baje mai nurse ko jata kar niche aa gaya.
Niche aakar maine coffee li aur fir bahar aakar baith gaya. Sham ko 6 baje ke bad se ab mujhe khud ke liye fursat mili thi. Nahi to, abhi tak mai kisi na kisi ke sath busy hi tha.
Ab maine jaise hi khud ko akela paya to, sab se pahle keerti ko call laga diya. Uska mobile abhi bhi band hi mila to, fir maine wahi karne ki than li. Jo mai dada ji ke apne kamre me aane ke pahle karne wala tha.
Maine mausi ke mobile ka number laga diya. Ring ja rahi thi. Lekin koi call nahi utha raha tha. Maine do teen baar call kiya. Lekin call nahi utha. Ab meri bechaini badti ja rahi thi. Keerti ke bina mujhe bahut suna suna sa lag raha tha.
Tabhi mujhe laga ki, shayad wo ghar wapas aa gayi ho. Mujhe nimi se bhi baat karna tha. Isliye maine sidhe chhoti maa ko call laga diya. Chhoti maa se baat hone ke bad meri nimi se thodi bahut baat huyi. Uske bad maine chhoti maa se keerti ke baare me puchha, to un ne bataya.
Chhoti maa boli “keerti to jab se ghar gayi hai. Tab se wapas hi nahi lauti hai.”
Mai bola “wo kuch bata kar nahi gayi ki, wo ghar kyo ja rahi hai.”
Chhoti maa boli “nahi, usne aisa kuch khas nahi bataya. Usne bas itna kaha tha ki, ghar se mummy ka phone aaya hai aur use jaruri kaam se bulaya hai.”
Chhoti maa ke is jabab se mujhe bahut nirasha huyi. Maine unse ek do idhar udhar ki baat karne ke bad phone rakh diya. Mujhe samajh me nahi aa raha tha ki keerti aisa kyo kar rahi hai.
Wo yadi mujhse gussa hai to, use mujh par gussa kar lena tha. Lekin kam se kam mujhse baat to kar lena tha. Kya mujhe us par gussa karne ka bhi haq nahi hai. Jo wo is tarah se mujhe tadpa rahi hai.
Upar se uska mobile bhi band ja raha. Uska mobile to mere gussa karne se pahle hi band tha. Keerti se judi har baat meri samajh ke bahar ja rahi thi. Mai inki kadi se kadi jodne ki koshish kar raha tha.
Tabhi mere mobile par mausi ka phone aane laga. Unka phone aate dekh kar, mere chehre par chamak aa gayi. Maine khushi khushi phone uthate huye kaha.
Mai bola “kya mausi, kabhi kabhi to mai call lagata hu. Us par bhi mera call nahi uthati ho.”
Mausi boli “aisi baat nahi hai re. Ghar me kuch mehmaan aaye huye hai. Unhi ki dekh bhal me fasi huyi hu. Isi vajah se tera call nahi utha payi thi. Lekin dekh jaise hi mehmano se fursat mili. Sab se pahle tujhe hi call lagaya hai.”
Mai bola “kaise mehman mausi. Kya mausa ji ke office se koi aaya hai. Ya fir koi party varty kar rahi ho.”
Mausi boli "jaisa tu soch raha hai. Aisa kuch bhi nahi hai. Ye baat tujhe aise samajh me nahi aayegi. Tu laut ke aaja, fir mai tujhe sab kuch samjha dugi.”
Mai bola “kya mausi, aap kabhi mujhe apna beta nahi manti. Isliye koi bhi baat mujhe nahi batati.”
Mausi boli “tu to mera raja beta hai re, aur tu hi is ghar ka bada beta bhi hai. Sab kuch tujhko hi to sambhalna hai.”
Mai bola “rahne do mausi, mujhe baton me mat bahlao. Yadi sach baat nahi batana hai to, mat batao.”
Mausi boli “tu itna jid kar raha hai to, mai tujhe sach baat bata deti hu. Lekin dekh, ye baat tu apni chhoti maa ko mat batana. Nahi to wo mujh par naraj ho jayegi.”
Mai bola “aap kahti ho to, bilkul nahi batauga. Ab bataiye to, ki kaun se khas mehman aaye hai. Jinki itni jyada aawbhagat chal rahi hai.”
Mausi boli “keerti ko dekhne wale aaye huye hai. Hum aaj keerti ki sagai kar rahe hai.”
Mausi ki is baat ko sunte hi mere kaan ke parde hi fat gaye. Mujhe kuch bhi sunayi dena band ho gaya. Mere dil ki dhadkane tham si gayi. Jis ki kalpna maine sapne me bhi nahi ki thi. Wo sab ho raha tha.
Keerti mujhe dulhan bani najar aa rahi thi. Mujhe aise lag raha tha. Jaise koi mera dil, mere seene se nikal kar le ja raha ho. Meri aankhon se khud-ba-khud aansu nikal pade.
Nikalte bhi kyo na. Keerti hi meri sab kuch thi aur ab usi ko mujhse chhina ja raha tha. Mere muh se mausi ki is baat ko sunne ke bad koi bol hi na fute. Mai kahta bhi to, kya kahta. Mujhe chup dekh kar, mausi ne kaha.
Mausi boli “dekh, maine ye baat tere siwa kisi ko bhi nahi batayi hai. Sunita ko bhi kuch nahi malum hai. Yadi use batati to, wo ye sab hone hi nahi deti. Bekar ka ladai jhagda laga deti.”
Mere dil ki duniya lut rahi thi. Meri pyar ki kashti doob rahi thi. Dubne wala bachne ke liye hath pair to, chalata hi hai. Maine bhi ek nakaam si koshish karte huye kaha.
Mai bola “mausi, ye kaise ho sakta hai. Keerti ki abhi shadi ki umar hi kaha huyi hai. Abhi to uske padne likhne ke din hai. Kam se kam uski padai to puri ho jaane do”
Mausi boli “un logon ko keerti ke padne likhne se koi aapatti nahi hai. Keerti yadi shadi ke bad padna chahti hai to, wo use padne se nahi rokege.”
Mai bola “fir bhi mausi, keerti ki abhi shadi ki umar nahi hai. Aap bahut jaldbaji kar rahi hai.”
Mausi boli “dekh, ab tu bhi sunita ki tarah mujhe samjhane ki koshish mat kar. Maine use isiliye ye sab nahi bataya. Kyoki wo ye sab hone nahi deti. Mujhe ladka pasand aa gaya aur mai nahi chahti thi ki, keerti ki jagah aur kisi se uski shadi ho.”
Mai janta tha ki mausi ko unki manmani karne se sirf chhoti maa ke siwa koi nahi rok sakta tha. Lekin unne chhoti maa ko hi is sab se door rakha hua tha. Meri kuch samajh me nahi aaya ki mai kya karu. Maine mausi se puchha.
Mai bola “mausi, kahi aap keerti ke sath jabardsti to nahi kar rahi hai. Kya aapne uski marji jaan li hai.”
Mausi boli “kaisi baat kar raha hai. Mai keerti ki maa hu. Uski dushman thode hi hu. Uski sahmati se hi sab kuch ho raha hai.”
Mujhe mausi ki is baat par jara bhi bharosa nahi ho raha tha. Mai janta tha ki keerti shadi ke liye kabhi haan nahi kah sakti. Mai mausi se bol pada.
Mai bola “mausi, kahi aap jhuth to nahi bol rahi. Keerti bhala shadi ke liye itni jaldi kaise taiyar ho sakti hai. Mujhe to lag raha hai ki, aap uske sath jor jabardasti kar rahi hai.”
Mausi boli “nahi re, tu ye kaisi baat kar raha hai. Mai bhala keerti ke sath kyo koi jor jabardasti karugi. Apne dono bachchon ki kasam kha kar bolti hu ki, ye sab keerti ki marji se hi ho raha hai. Mai jhuth nahi bol rahi hu.Pahle keerti ne shadi ke liye na nukur jarur ki thi.”
“Lekin jab maine use ladke aur ladke ke parivar ke baare me sab kuch bataya. Tab wo bhi is shadi ke liye taiyar ho gayi. Dekh, ab mehmano ke jaane ka samay ho raha hai. Mai tujhse bad me baat karti hu. Ab mai rakhti hu.”
Itna kah kar mausi ne phone rakh diya. Lekin mausi ki is baat se mera kaleja chhalni ho gaya tha. Ab mujhe mausi se koi shikayat nahi rah gayi thi. Mujhe yadi kisi se koi shikayat thi to, sirf keerti se thi.
Wo is shadi ke liye kaise taiyar ho gayi thi. Kya use ek pal ke liye bhi mera khayal nahi aaya tha. Ye saare sawal mere seene me uchhal rahe the aur mere dil ko lahuluhan kiye ja rahe the.
Maine apne aapko itna bebas kabhi bhi nahi paya tha. Jitna ki aaj mehsus kar raha tha. Meri aankhon ke samne keerti ka chehra aa raha tha aur mujhe rulaye ja raha tha.
Lekin na to waha koi mera rona dekhne wala tha aur na hi koi mere aansu pochhne wala tha. Mai keerti ke siwa sab kuch bhool chuka tha. Mujhe har taraf keerti hi najar aa rahi thi. Mai us se rote huye kahte ja raha tha.
“Jaan tumne mere sath aisa kyo kiya. Tumhe mujhse dhoka karne ki kya jarurat thi. Tum ek baar mujhse kahti ki, tumhe koi aur pasand aa gaya hai. Mai khud hanste hanste tumhe uske sath vida kar deta.”
“Tumhe mere sath ye dhoka nahi karna chahiye tha. Tum meri jaan thi. Tumhari khushi me hi, meri khushi thi. Tumhe ek baar to mujhse kah kar dekhna tha. Mai khushi khushi tumhare raste se hat jata.”
“Tum to kahti thi ki, tum mere siwa kisi ko apna nahi banogi. Fir tumhare us vade ka kya hua. Tum to kahti thi, tum mere bina ji nahi sakogi to, tumhari us kasam ka kya ho gaya. Mai tumhare bina nahi ji sakta jaan. Mai tumhare bina mar jauga.”
“Mai tumhare bin mar jauga jaan.” Jaise in shabdon ne mujhe saare dard se nijaat dila di ho. Sach me us samay mujhe jeene se jyada marne ke naam se shukun mila tha. Maine faisla kar liya ki, ab mai zinda nahi rahuga.
Maine apna mobile nikala aur keerti ke band mobile par call lagaya. Mobile abhi bhi band tha. Mere chehre par ek feeki si muskan aayi. Ye muskan mere pyar ki haar ke liye thi. Jo mobile raat ko 11 ke bad kabhi band nahi rahta tha. Wo aaj mere marne ke samay par bhi band tha. Maine keerti ko ek msg type kiya.
“Jaan ye tumhre liye mera aakhiri msg hai. Maafi chahta hu ki, tumhari khushiyon se bhari jindgi ko dekh kar, mai apne aapko khush nahi rakh saka. Magar kya karu. Mere liye mera sab kuch tum hi thi.”
“Jab tumhe hi mera sath pasand nahi hai. Tab bhala mai jeekar kya karuga. Mere dil me aakhiri baar tumse baat karne ki hasrat thi. Lekin meri hasrat mere dil me hi dab kar rah gayi.”
“Tum apni khushiyon me itni khoyi rahi ki, tumhe mai yaad hi na raha. Lekin ab mai tumhe yaad aana bhi nahi chahta hu. Mai tumhari jindagi se hamesha hamesha ke liye ja raha hu. Mai apni is jindagi ko aaj abhi khatam kar raha hu. I Love you jaan.”
Maine keerti ke band mobile par ye msg send kiya aur fir samundar ki taraf bad chala. Ab na to mere pas jeene ka koi maksad bacha tha aur na hi ab mujhe kisi ki koi parwah thi.
Mujhe sirf keerti ka mujhse door jana najar aa raha tha. Jis se bachne ke liye mere pas maut ke siwa koi dusra rasta nahi tha. Isliye mai apni maut ki taraf bada chala ja raha tha.
Lekin mere upar abhi kisi ke pyar ka karz baki tha. Use utare bina marna mere nashib me nahi tha. Mere kadam raat ke sannate me samundar ki taraf bade chale ja rahe the. Tabhi mera mobile baj utha.
Maine mobile dekha to, keerti ka call aa raha tha. Maine call kaat diya. Lekin fir mobile baj utha. Mai jitni baar call katta. Utni baar wapas call aata. Jab maine call nahi uthya to, kuch der bad mere pas msg aa gaya.
Maine beman se msg pada. Lekin msg padte hi mere kadam jaha ke taha ruk gaye. Meri samajh me nahi aaya ki, ye sab kaise ho gaya. Mai wapas aakar apni jagah par baith gaya. Call abhi bhi aaye ja rahe the. Magar ab mere andar call uthane ki himmat nahi thi. Mai soch raha tha ki, kya karu aur kya na karu.
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Kuch hi der me riya log taiyar hokar, mere kamre me aa gayi. Unke dinner par jaane ka samay ho chuka tha. Isliye mai uth kar, unke sath bahar aa gaya. Maine unhe taxi me baithaya aur fir apne kamre me wapas aa gaya.
Abhi sirf 8 baja tha aur mujhe hospital 10 baje pahuchna tha. Mai chahta tha ki is bich meri keerti se baat ho jaye. Yadi maine keerti ko gussa nahi kiya hota to, uska mobile itni der tak band nahi raha hota aur mujhe us se baat karne ki itni bechaini bhi nahi ho rahi hoti.
Lekin ab keerti se baat kiye bina, ek ek pal mere liye badi mushkil se beet raha tha. Mai har haal me, sirf keerti ki aawaj sunna chahta tha. Lekin mai us se kaise baat karu, ye meri samajh me nahi aa raha tha.
Tabhi mere dimag me ek baat aayi aur mere chehre par muskurahat aa gayi. Lekin tab mai ye nahi janta tha ki, ye muskurahat mere chehre par, sirf kuch der ke liye, mehmaan bankar aayi hai aur jate jate, mujhe ek aisa dard dene wali hai. Jise mai laakh koshish karne ke bad bhi nahi sah pauga.
Maine anjani si khushi ke josh me apna mobile uthaya aur jaise hi call lagane ko hua. Waise hi kisi ne mere kamre ka darwaja khatkhata diya. Ab riya, nikki aur priya to dinner par ja chuki thi. Aise me aunty ke siwa kisi aur ke hone ki koi ummid nahi thi.
Ye sochte huye, mai fauran darwaja kholne ke liye uth kar khada ho gaya. Maine darwaja khol to, samne dada ji khade najar aaye. Unhe dekhte hi maine unko andar aane ko kaha aur unke andar aakar chair par baithte hi, maine un se kaha.
Mai bola “dada ji aapko aane ki kya jarurat thi. Yadi aapko mujhse koi khas kaam tha to, mujhe bula liya hota. Mai aapke pas chala aata.”
Dada ji bole “dekho, bete ye duniya ki riwayat hai. Kunwa khud chal kar, pyase ke pas nahi aata. Balki pyase ko hi khud chalkar, kunwe ke pas jana padta hai.”
Mai bola “dada ji, aap mujhse bade hai. Aapko mujhe apne pas bulane ka pura haq hai. Fir chahe, wo kaam aapka hi kyo na ho.”
Dada ji bole “chalo agli baar se tumhari is baat ko yaad rakhuga. Ab mai apni baat par aata hu. Mujhe tumse ek bahut jaruri kaam ki baat karni hai. Isliye mai khud chal kar tumhare pas aaya hu.”
“Ye kaam yadi mai tumhare dost mehul ya kisi aur se bolta to, wo khushi khushi is kaam ko karne ke liye taiyar ho jaata. Lekin ho sakta hai ki, meri baat sunne ke bad, tum is kaam ko karne se mana kar do.”
Mai bola “dada ji aap aisa kyo sochte hai. Mai aapke kisi bhi kaam ko karne ke liye mana nahi kar sakta. Lekin ek baat bataiye, jab wo kaam mehul ya koi aur kar sakta hai. Tab aapne us kaam ke liye mujhe hi kyo chuna hai.”
Dada ji bole “beta, maine duniya dekhi hai. Mai logon ko dekh ke pahchan jata hu ki, kis ke man me kya hai. Aise hi maine tumhare man ko bhi pachana hai. Tum ek behad hi bhole bhale aur samvedanshil ladke ho. Jiske hath se kabhi kisi ka bura nahi ho sakta.”
Mai bola “aisa nahi hai dada ji. Mai koi bhola bhala nahi hu. Mere andar ghamand kut kut kar bhara hai. Mai apne siwa kisi ki baat nahi sunta.”
Dada ji bole “yahi to tumhara bholapan hai. Tum ghamand aur swabhimaan me antar hi nahi samajh sakte. Jise tum apna ghamand bol rahe ho. Wo tumhara swabhimaan hai. Swabhimani aadami sirf apne banaye aadarshon par chalta hai. Wo dusro ke dikhaye raste par nahi chalta. Isliye log use ghamandi kahte hai.”
Mai bola “in sab baton ka aapke kaam se kya lena hai.”
Dada ji bole “lena hai beta. Tabhi to sabko chhod kar, maine tumhe apne kaam ke liye chuna hai.”
Mai bola “aap apna kaam bataiye. Mai use pura karne ki puri koshish karuga.”
Dada ji bole “ye kaam mere ghar ki ijjat se juda hua hai. Isliye mai chahta hu ki, chahe tum mera kaam karo, ya na karo. Lekin humare bich me jo bhi baten ho rahi hai. Un baton ka pata kisi ko bhi nahi chalna chahiye. Kyoki is baat ke kisi aur ko pata chalne se, is ghar ki ijjat mitti me mil jayegi.”
Mai bola “aap brfikar rahe dada ji. Ye baat kisi ko bhi pata nahi chalegi. Aapke aur mere bich huyi baat, hamesha ke liye mere sine me dafan ho jayegi.”
Dada ji bole “ho sakta hai ki, ye kaam sunne ke bad, tum mera kaam karne ke liye mana kar do. Yadi tum aisa karte ho to bhi, mere man me tumhare liye koi burai nahi rahgi. Tum bhi is kaam ko sunne ke bad apne man me, humare pariwar ke liye koi mail mat aane dena.”
Mai bola “aap chinta na kare dada ji. Aapki kahi kisi baat se mere man me, aapke pariwar ke liye koi mail nahi aayega. Yadi koi baat mere man me aati bhi hai to, mai use aapse kar ke, apne man ka mail nikal luga. Ab aap apni baat bataiye.”
Dada ji bole “beta ye baat mai tumse dada ji bankar nahi, balki tumhara ek dost bankar karna chahta hu. Tum bhi mujhse kisi dost ki tarah hi baat karna. Is se na to, tumhare dil par koi bojh padega aur na hi mere dil par koi bojh padega.”
Mai bola “ji dada ji, jaisa aap chahte hai, waisa hi hoga. Hum ek dusre ke dost bankar hi baat karege.”
Dada ji bole “ab hum dost ban gaye hai to, doston ki tarah hi baten karte hai. Ab tum mujhe dada ji ki jagah, sirf dadu hi kahna.”
Mai bola “ok dadu.”
Dada ji bole “ab hum sex aur ladkiyon se judi baten karege. Kya tum mujhe apna dost samajh kar, ye baten khul ke kar paoge.”
Mai bola “ab dadu ko dost banaya hai to, dost ki tarah baat to karna hi padega. Mai kar luga dadu. Magar kisi baat par meri hansi mat udana.”
Dada ji bole “are doston ke bich to hansi majak chalta rahta hai. Tum is hansi majak ka bura mat manna. Ab ye batao, tumhari koi girlfriend hai.”
Mai bola “nahi, meri koi girlfriend nahi hai.”
Dada ji bole “ye to tum jhuth bol rahe ho. Tumhare jaise ladke ki koi girlfriend na ho. Ye mai maan hi nahi sakta.”
Mai bola “sach me dadu. Meri koi girlfriend nahi hai. Yadi hoti to batane me kya harj tha.”
Dada ji bole “chalo maan leta hu ki, tumhari koi girlfriend nahi hai. Magar kyo nahi hai. Kya koi pasand nahi aayi, ya fir kisi ko tum abhi tak pata hi nahi paye ho.”
Mai bola “koi pasand hi nahi aayi dadu.”
Dada ji bole “acha ye batao, tumhe riya, priya aur nikki me se kaun jyada sundar lagta hai.”
Mai bola “dadu, aap ye kya faltu ki baten puchh rahe hai. Apne kaam ki baat karo na.”
Dada ji bole “wahi baat karne ki taiyari kar raha hu. Lekin jab tak tum apne dost se khuloge nahi. Tab tak tumhara ye dost, tumse wo baat nahi kar payega.”
Mai bola “ok mujhe riya, priya aur nikki me nikki jyada sundar lagti hai.”
Dada ji bole “un teeno me jyada sexy kaun hai.”
Mai bola “riya sabse jyada sexy hai. Wo kuch bhi pahan le sexy hi lagti hai.”
Dada ji bole “acha ye bata, tujhe teeno me se sabse jyada kaun pasand hai.”
Mai bola “dadu, mujhe to, priya sabse jyada pasand hai. Wo hamesha hansti khilkhilati rahti hai. Uske andar abhi bhi bachpana bhara hua hai.”
Dada ji bole “tumhari najar bahut achi hai. Har kisi ki khubi ko badi aasani se pakad liya. Jab tumhari koi girlfriend nahi hai to, tum inme se hi, kisi ko girlfriend kyo nahi bana lete.”
Mai bola “inko girlfriend bana kar kya karuga dadu. Mujhe kaun sa yaha rahna hai. Kuch din bad to, mai wapas chala jauga. Girlfriend boyfriend apne sahar me hi banana acha rahta hai. Ye to meri dost hi thik hai.”
Dada ji bole “baat to tumhari sahi hai. Lekin tumhe ek girlfriend to banana hi chahiye. Tabhi to life ka kuch maja hai.”
Mai bola “dadu meri life me to bina girlfriend ke bhi maja hai. Mujhe kisi girlfriend ki jarurat nahi hai.”
Dada ji bole “jab tumhari girlfriend hi nahi hai to, tumhe girlfriend wale maje ka pata kaise chalega.”
Mai bola “kyo, girlfriend me aisa kya maja hai. Jara mujhe bhi batao.”
Dada ji bole “tumne kabhi kisi ke sath sex kiya hai.”
Mai bola “nahi kiya.”
Dada ji bole “yahi to wo maja hai, Jo girlfriend se milta hai. Tumhari umar me to, meri 3-4 girlfriend thi. Jinse maine sex bhi kiya tha. Ab tumhari girlfriend hi nahi hai to, tum sex kaise kar sakte ho. Magar tumne hast-maithun to jarur kiya hoga.”
Mai bola “ye kya hota hai aur isko karne se kya hota hai.”
Dada ji bole “iska matlab tumne ye bhi nahi kiya. Iske liye to girlfriend banane ki jarurat bhi nahi hoti hai. Jab kisi sundar aur sexy ladki ko dekhkar sharir me uttejna jaagti hai aur ling akad kar khada ho jata hai.”
“Aise samay me use shant karne ke liye, use apne hathon me lekar upar niche karte hai. Jis ko karne se ling me se virya ki pichkari chhutti hai aur ling shant ho jata hai. Ise hast-maithun kahte hai.”
Dada ji ki baat mere samajh me aa gayi thi. Mai hast-maithun ka matlab to, nahi janta tha. Lekin ab samajh me aaya tha ki, apne kamre me riya ko sochte huye, maine jo sab kuch kiya tha. Wo hast-maithun hi tha aur iske samajh me aate hi, maine achanak dada ji kaha.
Mai bola “ye to mai ek baar kar chuka hu dadu.”
Apni baat bol jaane ke bad, mujhe ye aehsas hua ki, mujhe ye baat nahi kahna chahiye thi. Isliye mera sar sharam se jhuk gaya. Lekin dadu meri baat sun chuke the aur wo is khel ke purane khiladi the. Un ne mujhse kaha.
Dada ji bole “kaun thi wo ladki. Jiske naam se tumne hast-maithun kiya tha.”
Mai bola “ladki koi nahi thi. Wo to maine aise hi kar liya tha.”
Dada ji bole “beta, ye ling kisi ladki ko dekh kar hi akada hoga. Fir tumne usi ladki ka naam le le kar ise apne hathon se shant karaya hoga. Ab hum jab apne ghar ka raz tumhe bata rahe hai to, tum bhi apna raz hume bada do.”
Mai bola “wo sab achanak hi ho gaya tha. Mai karna nahi chahta tha.”
Dada ji bole “is tarah safayi dene ka matlab to yahi hai ki, wo isi ghar ki koi ladki hai.”
Mai bola “nahi, wo hast-maithun to maine ghar me kiya tha. Hum log watterfall gaye the. Wahi maine ek ladki ko swiming karte dekha tha. Wo bahut sexy lag rahi thi. Uske bad mujhse raha nahi gaya aur ghar aakar maine ye sab kar liya.”
Dada ji bole “swiming par to, tumhare sath riya thi.”
Mai bola “kya dadu, aap to is ghar ke pichhe hi pad gaye. Is ghar ki koi ladki nahi thi.”
Dada ji bole “jaha tak mujhe riya ne bataya tha. Waha tumhare sath tumhari 3 bahne raj, riya, mehul aur mehul ki girlfriend thi. Tumhari 3 bahno aur mehul ki girlfriend ke baare me to tum aisa soch bhi nahi sakte. Tab to tumhare aisa karne ke liye riya hi bachti hai.”
Dada ji ki is baat ne meri bolti hi band kar di thi. Mai apne bachav ka rasta dud raha tha aur tabhi mere dimag me nitika ka khayal aa gaya. Maine un se kaha.
Mai bola “inke aalawa ek ladki nitika bhi thi. Usi ko dekh ke, mere man me ye khayal aa gaya tha.”
Baat to maine apni taraf se sahi hi ki thi. Lekin mere dimag me us samay ye baat nahi aayi thi ki, nitika bhi dada ji ke dusre ladke ki beti hai. Isliye meri baat sun kar dada ji ne hanste huye kaha.
Dada ji bole “tumhari pasand bhi ajib hai. Tumhe jannat ki ye pariyan chhod kar, wo chhuyi muyi si nitika pasand aayi. Maine to use salwar suit ke siwa, kabhi kisi libas me nahi dekha. Lekin ye baat to manna padega, wo bahut sidhi aur sarif ladki hai. Isiliye jab tumne use swiming karte hye dekha hoga to, tum ye sab karne par majbur ho gaye hoge. Lekin tum ye kyu bhool rahe ho ki, nitika bhi isi ghar ki bachchi hai.”
Mai bola “sorry dadu. Maine janbujh kar aisa nahi kiya tha. Wo to achanak hi mere sath aisa ho gaya tha.”
Dada ji bole “isme sorry bolne ki koi jarurat nahi hai. Ye to is umar me sabke sath hota hai. Kya tumhe nitika bahut pasand hai. Yadi pasand hai to bol do. Mai abhi se tumhari shadi uske sath fix karwa duga.”
Mai bola “nahi dadu, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Mai to ladkiyon se door hi rahta hu.”
Dada ji bole “thik hai, lekin yadi kabhi tumhara irada nitika se shadi karne ka bane to, mujhe bol dena. Meri baat ko koi nahi talega.”
Mai bola “ok dadu. Ab aap apni wo baat bataiye, jiske liye aap yaha mere pas aaye hai.”
Dada ji bole “thik hai to ab tum meri baat suno. Magar meri baat sunkar, tum ek dam se chaukna mat aur meri puri baat sunkar usko samajne ki koshish karna.”
Mai bola “ok dadu. Ab aap apni baat suru kijiye.”
Dada ji bole “baat ye hai ki, pichhle kuch samay se meri bahu ki tabiyat thik nahi rahti hai. Mujhe uske ilaj ke liye tumhari madad ki jarurat hai.”
Mai bola “aap boliye dadu, mujhe kya madad karna hai. Mai aunty ke ilaj ke liye aapki har madad karuga.”
Dada ji bole “tumhe uske sath sex karna hai.”
Dada ji ki ye baat sunkar, mai chauke bina, na rah saka. Mujhe abhi bhi apne kaano par vishwas hi nahi ho raha tha ki, mai jo kuch bhi sun raha hu, wo sab sach hai. Dada ji ki is baat ne mere is raz ko janne ki bechaini bada di thi. Lekin fir bhi ye baat mere gale se nahi utar rahi thi. Isliye maine unse kaha.
Mai bola “dadu aap ye sab kya bol rahe hai. Aunty meri maa ke barabar hai aur unke sath ye sab karna to door ki baat hai. Mai aisa sochna bhi paap samajhta hu. Aap jante hai ki, ye sab galat hai. Fir aap aisi baat kyo bol rahe hai.”
Dada ji bole “mai janta hu ki, ye sab galat hai. Fir bhi mujhe apni bahu ki khushi ke liye tumse ye sab kahna pad raha hai. Wo to is baare me kuch janti hi nahi hai. Maine pahle tumse baat karna thik samjha. Yadi tum haan kahte ho to, fir mai us se baat karuga.”
Mai bola “nahi dadu, mai aisa koi kaam nahi kar sakta. Jisse mere charitra par daag lage. Mai aapki har tarah ki madad karne ko taiyar hu. Magar mujhse aapki ye madad nahi hogi.”
Dada ji bole “kahin tum is vajah se mana to, nahi kar rahe ho. Kyoki padmini ek ladki na hokar, ek aurat hai aur tum apna pahla sex kisi ladki se karna chahte ho.”
Mai bola “nahi dadu, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Maine aapse jhuth kaha tha ki, meri koi girlfriend nahi hai. Meri ek girlfriend hai aur mai use behad pyar karta hu. Wo bhi mujhe bahut pyar karti hai. Wo mere siwa ki ke baare me sochti hi nahi hai. Humare bich sirf pyar ka pavitra rishta hai.
“Humare rishte ke bich sex kabhi aaya hi nahi hai. Jab maine uske sath abhi tak sex nahi kiya hai to, fir kisi aur ladki ke sath sex karne ke baare me soch bhi kaise sakta hu. Yadi mai aisa kuch karta hu to, ye uske pyar aur vishwas ke sath dhokha karna hoga. Ab aap hi batao, kya uske sath ye dhokha karna thik hoga.”
Dada ji bole “nahi, kisi ke pyar aur vishwas ke sath kabhi dhokha nahi karna chahiye. Fir bhi yadi tumhe us par vishwas hai aur tumhe lagta hai ki, wo humari baat ko kisi se nahi kahegi. Tab tum chaho to, us se ek baar puchh kar dekh sakte ho. Ho sakta hai ki, wo tumhe is baat ki ijajat de de.”
Mai bola “dadu, mujhe us par pura vishwas hai. Mai us se jo bhi baat karta hu. Wo un baton ko kabhi kisi se nahi kahti. Lekin mai use janta hu. Wo is baat ke liye kabhi taiyar nahi hogi. Pls dadu, mujhe ye kaam na karne ke liye maaf kar do. Aap chaho to, apna ye kaam mehul se karwa lo. Wo bahut acha ladka hai.”
Dada ji bole “nahi beta, mai janta hu ki mehul acha ladka hai. Lekin uske andar mujhe kisi baat ko raz rakhne ki kabliyat najar nahi aati. Wo is baat ko raz nahi rakh payega aur mere pariwar ki ijjat kharab ho jayegi.”
Mai bola “aapki soch sahi hai dadu. Mehul kisi baat ko apne pet me pacha nahi pata hai. Lekin meri samajh me ye baat nahi aa rahi hai ki, uncle ke hote huye aap ko ye sab karwane ki jarurat kya hai. Kya aap mujhe wo vajah batayege.”
Dada ji bole “mujhe tum par pura vishwas hai. Isliye mai tumhe apne aisa karne ki vajah batata hu. Jis se tumhe tumhare man me uth rahe saare sawalon ka jabab mil jayega. Tab tum mujhe batana ki, kya mai kuch galat kar raha hu.”
Iske bad dada ji mujhe us raz ke baare me batane lage. Jis ki vajah se un ne ye sab baten mujh se kahi thi. Mai un ki baten bade hi man laga kar sun raha tha. Apni baat khatam karne ke bad, wo mera chehra dekhne lage. Lekin jab mai kuch nahi bola to, un ne mujhse puchha.
Dada ji bole “mai janta hu. Tumhe ye sab jaankar mujhse aur mere parivar se nafrat ho rahi hogi. Lekin maine tumhe jo kuch bhi bataya hai. Wo sab sach hai. Ab ise tum chahe to, meri badkismati maan sakte ho, ya fir ise meri majburi ka naam de sakte ho. Lekin maine jo kuch bhi kiya. Us samay mujhe ye sab karna thik laga tha. Lekin ab mujhe is baat ko lekar man hi man pachtawa bhi hota hai.”
Mai abhi bhi unki baat ko khamoshi se sune ja raha tha. Dada ji ki kisi baat ka mere pas koi jabab nahi tha. Dada ji ne duniya dekhi thi aur unki kisi baat par ungli utha pana mere bas ki baat nahi thi. Fir bhi maine un se kaha.
Mai bola “dadu mujhe in sab baton ki itni samajh nahi hai. Lekin itna jarur janta hu ki, koi bhi kaam yadi kisi ki bhalai ke liye kiya gaya ho to, wo bura nahi hota. Fir isme to aapke saare parivar ki khushi chhupi huyi thi. Duniya chahe is baare me kuch bhi sochti ho. Lekin meri najar me aapne kuch galat nahi kiya. Mujhe aap se ya aapke parivar se koi nafrat nahi hai.”
Dada ji bole “bas beta, tumne meri baat ko samjha. Mere liye itna hi bahut hai. Yadi tumhari girlfriend is baat ke liye taiyar ho jaye to mujhe jarur batana.”
Mai bola “jarur dadu, yadi wo is baat ke liye maan gayi to, mai aapko jarur batauga.”
Dada ji bole “chalo, ab baat bahut ho gayi hai. Ab chal kar dinner kar lo. Fir tumhe hospital bhi jana hai.”
Mai bola “aap chalo dadu. Mai abhi aata hu.”
Meri baat sunkar, dada ji mere kamre se bahar chale gaye. Dada ji ke jaane ke bad mai fresh hua aur fir taiyar hone laga. Taiyar hote hote mujhe 9 baj gaye aur fir mai dinner ke liye dining room me aa gaya.
Dada ji aur aunty waha pahle se hi baithe huye the. Mujhe aaya dekh kar aunty khana lagane lagi. Aaj pahli baar mai aunty ko itne dhyan se dekh raha tha. Unki umar koi 40 ke aas pas hi hogi. Unhe dekh kar koi kah nahi sakta tha ki, wo 3 jawan bachcho ki maa hai.
Wo is samay yellow color ki saadi pahne huyi thi. Jisme unka doodh ki tarah gora rang aur bhi damak raha tha. Unki saadi ka pallu unki kamar par khusa hua tha. Jis vajah se unka pet aur nabhi saaf saaf najar aa rahi thi.
Shingar ke naam par unke gale me ek sone ka haar tha aur kamar me ek chandi ka kamar bandh bandha hua tha. Kaano me sone ki badi badi baliyan thi. Jo unke kaam karne par idhar udhar jhool rahi thi.
Apne baalon ko un ne ek choti banakar bandha hua tha. Fir bhi unke kaano ke kinare ke kuch baal, bandhne se bach gaye the. Jo unke gaalon par aa rahe the. Jisse unki sundarta aur bhi bad gayi thi.
Unke manthe par ek chhoti si bindi thi aur maang me sindur ki lalima thi. Jo unke pativrata hone ki nishani thi. Wo is samay sundarta ki jeeti jaagti murat najar aa rahi thi. Aunty ka ye roop dekh kar, mai isme kho sa gaya.
Mujhe ye bhi yaad na raha ki, is samay dada ji bhi mere sath baithe huye hai. Aise me mujhe is tarah se aunty ghoorte dekh kar, wo ya aunty mere baare me kya sochege. Mai in sab baton se anjan, aunty ko ek-tak dekhe hi ja raha tha.
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Wo is samay yellow color ki saadi pahne huyi thi. Jisme unka doodh ki tarah gora rang aur bhi damak raha tha. Unki saadi ka pallu unki kamar par khusa hua tha. Jis vajah se unka pet aur nabhi saaf saaf najar aa rahi thi.
Shingar ke naam par unke gale me ek sone ka haar tha aur kamar me ek chandi ka kamar bandh bandha hua tha. Kaano me sone ki badi badi baliyan thi. Jo unke kaam karne par idhar udhar jhool rahi thi.
Apne baalon ko un ne ek choti banakar bandha hua tha. Fir bhi unke kaano ke kinare ke kuch baal, bandhne se bach gaye the. Jo unke gaalon par aa rahe the. Jisse unki sundarta aur bhi bad gayi thi.
Unke manthe par ek chhoti si bindi thi aur maang me sindur ki lalima thi. Jo unke pativrata hone ki nishani thi. Wo is samay sundarta ki jeeti jaagti murat najar aa rahi thi. Aunty ka ye roop dekh kar, mai isme kho sa gaya.
Mujhe ye bhi yaad na raha ki, is samay dada ji bhi mere sath baithe huye hai. Aise me mujhe is tarah se aunty ghoorte dekh kar, wo ya aunty mere baare me kya sochege. Mai in sab baton se anjan, aunty ko ek-tak dekhe hi ja raha tha.
Mai aunty ke is man mohak roop me kho sa gaya tha. Mere man me vasna naam ki koi baat nahi thi. Na hi aunty ko lekar mere man me, koi galat vichar aa raha tha. Lekin mujhe is tarah aunty ko ghurte huye dekh kar aunty ne kaha.
Aunty boli “kya hua beta. Mujhe aise kyo dekh raha hai. Kya tujhe ye dinner pasand nahi hai.”
Mai bola “nahi aunty, aisi koi baat nahi hai. Dinner acha hai. Mai to ye dekh raha hu ki, aapke andar sab ke liye kitni mamta hai. Aap hum sab ka kitna khayal rakhti hai. Itna sab karne ke bad bhi aapke chehre par thakan ka namo-nishan tak nahi hai.”
Aunty boli “chal hat pagal. Maa apne bachcho ka khayal nahi rakhegi to aur kaun rakhega. Koi bhi maa apne ghar ke kaam kaaj ko karne se kabhi nahi thakti. Teri maa bhi to ghar me tere liye yahi sab karti hogi. Kya tune use kabhi thakte dekha hai.”
Aunty ki baat sunkar dada ji bol pade.
Dada ji bole “bahu punnu ki maa nahi hai. Wo apni sauteli maa ke sath rahta hai. Fir bhala wo in sab baton ko kaise samjhega.”
Dada ji ki baat sunkar aunty ne kaha.
Aunty boli “sorry beta, mere dimag se ye baat nikal gayi thi. Meri baat yadi tumhe buri lagi ho to, uske liye mai maafi chahti hu. Sauteli maa se to tumhe kabhi maa ka pyar mila hi nahi hoga. Kyoki koi bhi sauteli maa kabhi sagi maa ki jagah nahi le sakti hai.”
Mujhe aunty ki meri maa na hone wali baat ka jara bhi bura nahi laga. Lekin jab un ne kaha ki koi bhi sauteli maa sagi maa ki jagah nahi le sakti. Tab mujhse raha nahi gaya. Maine unki is baat ka jabab dete huye kaha.
Mai bola “nahi aunty, isme maafi mangne wali koi baat nahi hai. Mujhe janam dene wali maa sach me is duniya me nahi hai. Lekin fir bhi meri maa hai. Meri chhoti maa ne kabhi bhi mujhe apni maa ki kami mehsus nahi hone di. Wo mujhe itna pyar karti hai. Jitna koi sagi maa bhi apne bete ko na karti hogi.”
“Unne sirf meri vajah se mere bap ke diye har dard ko saha hai. Nahi to, wo kab ka mere bap ko chhod kar chali gayi hoti. Wo mere liye meri sagi maa se bhi badkar hai. Mai apni sagi maa ko to kab ka bhool chuka hu. Lekin meri chhoti maa hamesha mere dil me rahti hai.”
Dada ji bole “sorry beta, jo maine tumhari chhoti maa ko sauteli maa kaha. Shayad tumhe is baat ka bura lag gaya.”
Mai bola “dadu, isme sorry bolne wali koi baat nahi hai. Log aksar sauteli maa ko bura hi samajhte hai. Lekin mere liye meri chhoti maa devi hai. Unhe meri har chhoti se chhoti baat ki fikar rahti hai. Yaha bhi unka phone barabar aata rahta hai.”
“Unhe hamesha is baat ki chinta lagi rahti hai ki, maine khana khaya ya nahi khaya. Kahi raat ko jagne ki vajah se meri tabiyat to kharab nahi ho gayi hai. Ab kya is sabke bad bhi aap logon ko lagta hai ki, koi sauteli maa sagi maa ki jagah nahi le sakti.”
Meri baat sunkar dada ji kuch nahi bole. Shayad unke pas meri is baat ka koi jabab nahi tha. Lekin aunty ne meri baat sunkar kaha.
Aunty boli “beta tum sach me bahut kismat wale ho. Jo tumhe aisi maa mili hai. Tumhari maa sach me devi hi hai. Jo tumhe itna pyar karti hai. Kya tumhare ghar me tumhare koi bhai bahan bhi hai.”
Mai bola “haan aunty hai. Mere ghar me meri chhoti maa aur papa ke alawa meri do chhoti bahne bhi hai. Meri ek bahan ka naam amita hai. Hum use pyar se ami bulate hai. Wo abhi teesri kaksha me pad rahi hai. Meri dusri bahan ka naam namita hai. Hum use pyar se nimi bulate hai. Usne isi saal se school jana suru kiya hai.”
“Dono hi ek se bad kar, ek hai. Unki shaitaniyon se humare ghar me hamesha hansi khushi bani rahti hai. Jitna pyar mai un dono se karta hu. Us se bhi jyada pyar wo dono mujhse karti hai. Yadi unka bas chalta to, wo dono bhi mere sath yaha aa gayi hoti.”
Aunty boli “tab to dono tumhe bahut miss kar rahi hogi.”
Mai bola “haan aunty, dono hi mujhe bahut miss kar rahi hai. Nimi ko to bukhar tak aa gaya hai. Ab usne shart rakhi hai ki, mai roj us se 3 baar baat karuga, Nahi to, wo khana nahi khayegi.”
Aunty boli “aur ami kya kahti hai.”
Mai bola “ami us se badi hai, isliye usne is se bhi badi baat ki hai. Usne kaha ki uncle ka operation to ho chuka hai aur abhi papa bhi wahi hai. Aise me kuch din ke liye mai ghar aa jau.”
Aunty boli “sach me tum bahut kismat wale ho. Jo tumhe itna pyar karne wala pariwar mila hai.”
Mai bola “haan aunty, wo to mai hu. Lekin aap bhi kam kismat wali nahi hai, jise itna acha parivar mila hai.”
Meri baat sunkar aunty ka chehra utar sa gaya tha. Likin fir bhi un ne muskurate huye kaha.
Aunty boli “sach hai, aisa parivar kismat walo ko hi milta hai. Ab tum ye baten chhodo aur dinner karo. Nahi to fir tumhe hospital pahuchne me der ho jayegi.”
Mai bola “ji aunty.”
Iske bad koi kuch nahi bola. Sab khomoshi se dinner karte rahe. Mai man hi man aunty se khushkismat hone wali baat bolne ke liye khud ko kosh raha tha. Kuch der bad hum sab dinner kar chuke the.
Ab maine time dekha to 9:30 baj chuka tha. Tab maine dada ji aur aunty se hospital jaane ke liye ijajat mangi aur fir mai bahar aa gaya. Bahar aakar maine taxi li aur hospital ke liye nikal gaya.
Mai 10 baje hospital pahuch gaya. Hospital pahuch kar, maine dekha to niche raj baitha tha. Maine us se kaha.
Mai bola “ab uncle ki tabiyat kaisi hai.”
Raj bola “ab unki tabiyat pahle se behatar hai. Doctor ne unhe jyada se jyada walk karne ko kaha hai.”
Mai bola “kya aisi haalat me uncle ka walk karna thik rahega.”
Raj bola “yahi baat maine bhi doctor se bhi puchhi thi. Uska kahna tha ki, inki jo surgery ki gayi hai. Uske liye inka walk karna jaruri hai. Isse inki sabhi koshikayen sahi tarike se kaam karne lagegi aur inki haalat me bhi sudhar jaldi aa jayega.”
Mai bola “ok doctor ne kaha hai to, soch samajh kar hi kaha hoga. Lekin kya uncle bister se uthne lage hai.”
Raj bola “haan, ab wo bistar se uthne lage hai. Maine khud unhe walk karaya tha aur abhi mehul unhe walk kara raha hai. Wo khud hi walk bhi kar sakte hai. Magar abhi unhe drip lagi huyi hai. Jis vajah se kisi ek ka unke sath hona jaruri hai. Raat ko yadi uncle tumhe walk ke liye bole to, tum unki drip ko pakad lena baki walk wo khud kar lege. Unhe walk karne me koi pareshani nahi hai.”
Mai bola “ok yadi ab uncle ka walk ho gaya ho to, mehul ko bula lo. Tum logon ko ab ghar jana chahiye.”
Raj bola “ok mai abhi mehul ko call karta hu.”
Ye kah kar raj ne mehul ko call laga diya. Kuch der bad mehul niche aa gaya. Niche aate hi wo mere gale se lag gaya aur kahne laga.
Mehul bola “bhai yaha ke doctor sach me kamal ke hai. Unne papa ko 2 din me hi khada kar diya. Mai to soch raha tha ki, na jaane abhi papa kitne din yu hi bed par lete rahege. Lekin aaj unhe chalte huye dekh kar, mujhe bahut khushi huyi. Ab lag raha hai ki papa jaldi hi thik ho jayege.”
Mai bola “ab to tu khush hai na. Ab bas hume kuch din yaha uncle ki sewa aur karna hai. Fir hum khushi khushi unhe apne ghar lekar chalege.”
Mehul bola “par bhai, abhi wo kuch kha nahi pa rahe hai. Unhe jo bhi diya ja raha hai. Wo rice tube se diya ja raha hai.”
Mai bola “humare jaane se pahle wo bhi door ho jayegi. Uncle ka gale ka operation hua hai. Isliye unhe khane peene me pareshani hai. Jis vajah se unhe is tarah se khana diya ja raha hai. Lekin kuch din me unke jakhm bharte hi, unhe fir waise hi khana diya jaane lagega. Ab tu is baare me jyada mat soch. Dhire dhire sab thik ho jayega.”
Mehul bola “bhagwan kare jaisa tu bol raha hai. Sab waisa hi ho.”
Mai bola “sab waisa hi hoga. Ab tum log yaha ki chinta mat karo. Mai yaha sab sambhal luga. Ab tum log ghar jao.”
Meri baat sunne ke bad un ne mujhe kuch baten batayi aur fir dono ghar chale gaye. Unke jaane ke bad mai upar uncle ke pas chala aaya. Wo abhi bhi baat nahi kar pa rahe the. Isliye wo mujhse notbook par likh kar baten karne lage.
Kuch der bad wo sone ki bol kar aankh band kar ke let gaye. Thodi hi der me unhe nind bhi aa gayi. Unke sone ke kuch der bad tak mai unke pas baitha raha. Fir 11:30 baje mai nurse ko jata kar niche aa gaya.
Niche aakar maine coffee li aur fir bahar aakar baith gaya. Sham ko 6 baje ke bad se ab mujhe khud ke liye fursat mili thi. Nahi to, abhi tak mai kisi na kisi ke sath busy hi tha.
Ab maine jaise hi khud ko akela paya to, sab se pahle keerti ko call laga diya. Uska mobile abhi bhi band hi mila to, fir maine wahi karne ki than li. Jo mai dada ji ke apne kamre me aane ke pahle karne wala tha.
Maine mausi ke mobile ka number laga diya. Ring ja rahi thi. Lekin koi call nahi utha raha tha. Maine do teen baar call kiya. Lekin call nahi utha. Ab meri bechaini badti ja rahi thi. Keerti ke bina mujhe bahut suna suna sa lag raha tha.
Tabhi mujhe laga ki, shayad wo ghar wapas aa gayi ho. Mujhe nimi se bhi baat karna tha. Isliye maine sidhe chhoti maa ko call laga diya. Chhoti maa se baat hone ke bad meri nimi se thodi bahut baat huyi. Uske bad maine chhoti maa se keerti ke baare me puchha, to un ne bataya.
Chhoti maa boli “keerti to jab se ghar gayi hai. Tab se wapas hi nahi lauti hai.”
Mai bola “wo kuch bata kar nahi gayi ki, wo ghar kyo ja rahi hai.”
Chhoti maa boli “nahi, usne aisa kuch khas nahi bataya. Usne bas itna kaha tha ki, ghar se mummy ka phone aaya hai aur use jaruri kaam se bulaya hai.”
Chhoti maa ke is jabab se mujhe bahut nirasha huyi. Maine unse ek do idhar udhar ki baat karne ke bad phone rakh diya. Mujhe samajh me nahi aa raha tha ki keerti aisa kyo kar rahi hai.
Wo yadi mujhse gussa hai to, use mujh par gussa kar lena tha. Lekin kam se kam mujhse baat to kar lena tha. Kya mujhe us par gussa karne ka bhi haq nahi hai. Jo wo is tarah se mujhe tadpa rahi hai.
Upar se uska mobile bhi band ja raha. Uska mobile to mere gussa karne se pahle hi band tha. Keerti se judi har baat meri samajh ke bahar ja rahi thi. Mai inki kadi se kadi jodne ki koshish kar raha tha.
Tabhi mere mobile par mausi ka phone aane laga. Unka phone aate dekh kar, mere chehre par chamak aa gayi. Maine khushi khushi phone uthate huye kaha.
Mai bola “kya mausi, kabhi kabhi to mai call lagata hu. Us par bhi mera call nahi uthati ho.”
Mausi boli “aisi baat nahi hai re. Ghar me kuch mehmaan aaye huye hai. Unhi ki dekh bhal me fasi huyi hu. Isi vajah se tera call nahi utha payi thi. Lekin dekh jaise hi mehmano se fursat mili. Sab se pahle tujhe hi call lagaya hai.”
Mai bola “kaise mehman mausi. Kya mausa ji ke office se koi aaya hai. Ya fir koi party varty kar rahi ho.”
Mausi boli "jaisa tu soch raha hai. Aisa kuch bhi nahi hai. Ye baat tujhe aise samajh me nahi aayegi. Tu laut ke aaja, fir mai tujhe sab kuch samjha dugi.”
Mai bola “kya mausi, aap kabhi mujhe apna beta nahi manti. Isliye koi bhi baat mujhe nahi batati.”
Mausi boli “tu to mera raja beta hai re, aur tu hi is ghar ka bada beta bhi hai. Sab kuch tujhko hi to sambhalna hai.”
Mai bola “rahne do mausi, mujhe baton me mat bahlao. Yadi sach baat nahi batana hai to, mat batao.”
Mausi boli “tu itna jid kar raha hai to, mai tujhe sach baat bata deti hu. Lekin dekh, ye baat tu apni chhoti maa ko mat batana. Nahi to wo mujh par naraj ho jayegi.”
Mai bola “aap kahti ho to, bilkul nahi batauga. Ab bataiye to, ki kaun se khas mehman aaye hai. Jinki itni jyada aawbhagat chal rahi hai.”
Mausi boli “keerti ko dekhne wale aaye huye hai. Hum aaj keerti ki sagai kar rahe hai.”
Mausi ki is baat ko sunte hi mere kaan ke parde hi fat gaye. Mujhe kuch bhi sunayi dena band ho gaya. Mere dil ki dhadkane tham si gayi. Jis ki kalpna maine sapne me bhi nahi ki thi. Wo sab ho raha tha.
Keerti mujhe dulhan bani najar aa rahi thi. Mujhe aise lag raha tha. Jaise koi mera dil, mere seene se nikal kar le ja raha ho. Meri aankhon se khud-ba-khud aansu nikal pade.
Nikalte bhi kyo na. Keerti hi meri sab kuch thi aur ab usi ko mujhse chhina ja raha tha. Mere muh se mausi ki is baat ko sunne ke bad koi bol hi na fute. Mai kahta bhi to, kya kahta. Mujhe chup dekh kar, mausi ne kaha.
Mausi boli “dekh, maine ye baat tere siwa kisi ko bhi nahi batayi hai. Sunita ko bhi kuch nahi malum hai. Yadi use batati to, wo ye sab hone hi nahi deti. Bekar ka ladai jhagda laga deti.”
Mere dil ki duniya lut rahi thi. Meri pyar ki kashti doob rahi thi. Dubne wala bachne ke liye hath pair to, chalata hi hai. Maine bhi ek nakaam si koshish karte huye kaha.
Mai bola “mausi, ye kaise ho sakta hai. Keerti ki abhi shadi ki umar hi kaha huyi hai. Abhi to uske padne likhne ke din hai. Kam se kam uski padai to puri ho jaane do”
Mausi boli “un logon ko keerti ke padne likhne se koi aapatti nahi hai. Keerti yadi shadi ke bad padna chahti hai to, wo use padne se nahi rokege.”
Mai bola “fir bhi mausi, keerti ki abhi shadi ki umar nahi hai. Aap bahut jaldbaji kar rahi hai.”
Mausi boli “dekh, ab tu bhi sunita ki tarah mujhe samjhane ki koshish mat kar. Maine use isiliye ye sab nahi bataya. Kyoki wo ye sab hone nahi deti. Mujhe ladka pasand aa gaya aur mai nahi chahti thi ki, keerti ki jagah aur kisi se uski shadi ho.”
Mai janta tha ki mausi ko unki manmani karne se sirf chhoti maa ke siwa koi nahi rok sakta tha. Lekin unne chhoti maa ko hi is sab se door rakha hua tha. Meri kuch samajh me nahi aaya ki mai kya karu. Maine mausi se puchha.
Mai bola “mausi, kahi aap keerti ke sath jabardsti to nahi kar rahi hai. Kya aapne uski marji jaan li hai.”
Mausi boli “kaisi baat kar raha hai. Mai keerti ki maa hu. Uski dushman thode hi hu. Uski sahmati se hi sab kuch ho raha hai.”
Mujhe mausi ki is baat par jara bhi bharosa nahi ho raha tha. Mai janta tha ki keerti shadi ke liye kabhi haan nahi kah sakti. Mai mausi se bol pada.
Mai bola “mausi, kahi aap jhuth to nahi bol rahi. Keerti bhala shadi ke liye itni jaldi kaise taiyar ho sakti hai. Mujhe to lag raha hai ki, aap uske sath jor jabardasti kar rahi hai.”
Mausi boli “nahi re, tu ye kaisi baat kar raha hai. Mai bhala keerti ke sath kyo koi jor jabardasti karugi. Apne dono bachchon ki kasam kha kar bolti hu ki, ye sab keerti ki marji se hi ho raha hai. Mai jhuth nahi bol rahi hu.Pahle keerti ne shadi ke liye na nukur jarur ki thi.”
“Lekin jab maine use ladke aur ladke ke parivar ke baare me sab kuch bataya. Tab wo bhi is shadi ke liye taiyar ho gayi. Dekh, ab mehmano ke jaane ka samay ho raha hai. Mai tujhse bad me baat karti hu. Ab mai rakhti hu.”
Itna kah kar mausi ne phone rakh diya. Lekin mausi ki is baat se mera kaleja chhalni ho gaya tha. Ab mujhe mausi se koi shikayat nahi rah gayi thi. Mujhe yadi kisi se koi shikayat thi to, sirf keerti se thi.
Wo is shadi ke liye kaise taiyar ho gayi thi. Kya use ek pal ke liye bhi mera khayal nahi aaya tha. Ye saare sawal mere seene me uchhal rahe the aur mere dil ko lahuluhan kiye ja rahe the.
Maine apne aapko itna bebas kabhi bhi nahi paya tha. Jitna ki aaj mehsus kar raha tha. Meri aankhon ke samne keerti ka chehra aa raha tha aur mujhe rulaye ja raha tha.
Lekin na to waha koi mera rona dekhne wala tha aur na hi koi mere aansu pochhne wala tha. Mai keerti ke siwa sab kuch bhool chuka tha. Mujhe har taraf keerti hi najar aa rahi thi. Mai us se rote huye kahte ja raha tha.
“Jaan tumne mere sath aisa kyo kiya. Tumhe mujhse dhoka karne ki kya jarurat thi. Tum ek baar mujhse kahti ki, tumhe koi aur pasand aa gaya hai. Mai khud hanste hanste tumhe uske sath vida kar deta.”
“Tumhe mere sath ye dhoka nahi karna chahiye tha. Tum meri jaan thi. Tumhari khushi me hi, meri khushi thi. Tumhe ek baar to mujhse kah kar dekhna tha. Mai khushi khushi tumhare raste se hat jata.”
“Tum to kahti thi ki, tum mere siwa kisi ko apna nahi banogi. Fir tumhare us vade ka kya hua. Tum to kahti thi, tum mere bina ji nahi sakogi to, tumhari us kasam ka kya ho gaya. Mai tumhare bina nahi ji sakta jaan. Mai tumhare bina mar jauga.”
“Mai tumhare bin mar jauga jaan.” Jaise in shabdon ne mujhe saare dard se nijaat dila di ho. Sach me us samay mujhe jeene se jyada marne ke naam se shukun mila tha. Maine faisla kar liya ki, ab mai zinda nahi rahuga.
Maine apna mobile nikala aur keerti ke band mobile par call lagaya. Mobile abhi bhi band tha. Mere chehre par ek feeki si muskan aayi. Ye muskan mere pyar ki haar ke liye thi. Jo mobile raat ko 11 ke bad kabhi band nahi rahta tha. Wo aaj mere marne ke samay par bhi band tha. Maine keerti ko ek msg type kiya.
“Jaan ye tumhre liye mera aakhiri msg hai. Maafi chahta hu ki, tumhari khushiyon se bhari jindgi ko dekh kar, mai apne aapko khush nahi rakh saka. Magar kya karu. Mere liye mera sab kuch tum hi thi.”
“Jab tumhe hi mera sath pasand nahi hai. Tab bhala mai jeekar kya karuga. Mere dil me aakhiri baar tumse baat karne ki hasrat thi. Lekin meri hasrat mere dil me hi dab kar rah gayi.”
“Tum apni khushiyon me itni khoyi rahi ki, tumhe mai yaad hi na raha. Lekin ab mai tumhe yaad aana bhi nahi chahta hu. Mai tumhari jindagi se hamesha hamesha ke liye ja raha hu. Mai apni is jindagi ko aaj abhi khatam kar raha hu. I Love you jaan.”
Maine keerti ke band mobile par ye msg send kiya aur fir samundar ki taraf bad chala. Ab na to mere pas jeene ka koi maksad bacha tha aur na hi ab mujhe kisi ki koi parwah thi.
Mujhe sirf keerti ka mujhse door jana najar aa raha tha. Jis se bachne ke liye mere pas maut ke siwa koi dusra rasta nahi tha. Isliye mai apni maut ki taraf bada chala ja raha tha.
Lekin mere upar abhi kisi ke pyar ka karz baki tha. Use utare bina marna mere nashib me nahi tha. Mere kadam raat ke sannate me samundar ki taraf bade chale ja rahe the. Tabhi mera mobile baj utha.
Maine mobile dekha to, keerti ka call aa raha tha. Maine call kaat diya. Lekin fir mobile baj utha. Mai jitni baar call katta. Utni baar wapas call aata. Jab maine call nahi uthya to, kuch der bad mere pas msg aa gaya.
Maine beman se msg pada. Lekin msg padte hi mere kadam jaha ke taha ruk gaye. Meri samajh me nahi aaya ki, ye sab kaise ho gaya. Mai wapas aakar apni jagah par baith gaya. Call abhi bhi aaye ja rahe the. Magar ab mere andar call uthane ki himmat nahi thi. Mai soch raha tha ki, kya karu aur kya na karu.